bad case of missing you...

since friday,there has been a lot of blog worthy events that took place. i don't know if it was my lack of sleep that prevented my fingers to type away or if it was the overwhelming feeling you get when you realize that you are experiencing a bad case of missing somebody you have'nt really seen for a couple of months now.

so, let's just talk about those blog-worthy events some other time.i know,i'll be posting about it sometime before the week ends.

lets talk about paul (yes,that is his name).

for some,they have seen his name a couple of times in this blog,but lately, his name has been appearing less and less because i have'nt been able to get together with them for quite some time now. i even missed his birthday...sorry popo...

i don't know why i never got past my infatuation with this guy. he's a playboy...and everybody knows it. he is one big flirt...it is no secret.

so with that being said,i should not think about him...and his smile.

i should not think about how he used to sneak right next to me whenever we hang out. the way you place your head on my lap and demand that i run my fingers through your hair or massage your head.

i should not think about the countless number of times you tried to ask a friend regarding my whereabouts when i'm not with them.

i should not think about that cold december evening where you willingly took off your shirt because i was cold.thank you, that was the closest i got to getting a hug from you that night.

i should not keep on thinking back during the picnic...and the badminton games...and the movies...and every other activity we did together...it only makes me miss you more.

never mind that we get all serious whenever talking after a few rounds of beer.never mind that we keep on badgering one another with witty criticisms every now and then.never mind that i was the person with whom you promised to that you are going to try to find a lady to truly love and care for.

never mind all that and the fact that i sometimes wish,i'd be that lucky gal.

never mind that i'm missing you today...i just hope tomorrow...it will all go away.