with the turn around of events in my life, though i've tried to overcome most of them because i want to be a more mature person when it comes to post relationship trauma,i can't help but feel like a loser...

the men in my life who used to love me more than life itself are now gone. it makes you think if there is something wrong with you somehow. you start to wonder if one day you just wake up and you are a whole different person altogether. somebody "they" can't love. somebody "they" don't want to be with. i hate what i feel and it makes me feel like a bigger loser for even thinking something like this.

well, sometimes that's what being lonely can do to you. when people you love, suddenly does not love you anymore, you feel unwanted. and you get scared,every single day. you get afraid that other men will see this ugly side of you that "they" see.

i don't know, but i feel scared, afraid, whatever you want to call it...that nobody will ever hold on to me.

i don't want to be the girl they always say goodbye to....

i don't want to the girl who always gets left behind....

sniff.sniff.