ashole...like everybody else

i brought my niece to our old neighbor's baby's first birthday yesterday. i did'nt know how to get to their new place because everybody left earlier than expected which left me with nobody who knows the directions to go with.

so, i did the only logical thing left to do,i called vhal. yes,he is the ex boyfriend whose heart i broke. since he knew the neighbor's husband and he knew the place better than i do, i asked him if he could go with us just to guide us to the place,he agreed. that was a mistake.

i don't understand while people agree to something they don't really want to do. he came late. he asked to help carry my niece (which i think is nice of him), until a certain point where we would be passing his ex-girlfriend's house...he handed my niece back to me with a crap of a reason that he is tired, which i know is bulls**t. i gave him "the look" and got my niece back just as the sister of his ex was shouting "vhal,yan ba?! yan ba ha?!". i was pissed but i could have just let it go if he did'nt reply "wala na! wala na ngayon!" i wanted to kick his butt.if i only knew the way to the party,i could have asked him to just go home and leave us alone...but i did'nt and it made me powerless and more pissed.

after passing the house and is a good distance from it,he asked for my niece again, which i refused to let him carry. i did'nt care if i was sweating like a pig or if my limbs are starting to get numb, i just could not believe his nerve. then my niece,my very,very loyal niece also refused to be carried by the bad guy. so i told him, "ayaw nya na sumama sayo kasi kinakahiya mo daw sya.." imagine my horror when he said something like "hindi naman ung pamangkin mo ang ikinahihiya ko na makitang kasama ko..." that was it! i wanted to put my niece down and give the guy a beating. i wanted to shout at him,but of course i did'nt. i just said "is that so, then why did you fucking come in the first place?" he did not reply, i wanted to strangle him with my bare hands.

we got to the party and he left immediately. i did'nt thank him (i know,i'm a bitch). i asked someone to look after my niece and then went ahead for a smoke.

i'm mad at him but i can't blame him. i cheated on him, i deserve his anger. he is entitled to hate me...but i won't take crap from him or from anybody else for that matter. so i made i resolve, if you don't want to be seen with me, fine.i don't wanna be seen with you either.

let's stop this let's-try-to-be-friends-crap because there's really nothing to it but crap.
so you can hate me or you can curse me. i don't really give a s**t! you're not the person i thought you were anyway, so go ahead, take a hike! and maybe get a life!