my sister SMSd me yesterday.she has this constant demand to talk over the phone on a daily basis. i think she just misses us because she now lives with the father of her baby who happens to be the little brother of my greatest love...yeah,the one who got to break my heart into a gazillion pieces...over and over again.

well,my sister informed me that ex-boyfriend of mine (not the brother of his baby's daddy) called her (he has really been close with the family ) and was just checking on her and the baby which he got to love as much as i do. sister informed him about other sister's upcoming bday this saturday and urged him to come. ex-boyfriend decides to drop by,but take note,told my sister that he was dropping by because he wanted to see them and not because of me.

wtf?!

why would he think that i would assume something like that? i was never the assuming type. sister just laughed out loud and said, "do you really believe him when he said that,i don't know bout you but i think he's gonna be there to see you as well,he just don't want to admit it.he does'nt want his ego to be bruised."

for all those people who is thinking, "why not just get back with him?"

let's see why not...

i won't because i'm not really in love with him to actually want him back.

i won't because i don't want to break his heart into a gazillion pieces by making him think that things are going to be different when it really won't.

i won't because he's a good man and he deserves someone who will fall completely head-over-heels in love with him.

i won't because i'm not a selfish bitch and i know he is trying to move on and i don't want to jeopardize that opportunity for him to find happiness.


so never mind that i'm alone.

never mind that i don't have somebody to cuddle with or talk to till the wee hours of the night.

never mind that i may find myself strolling malls, watching a movie or dining by myself.

yes,i may be alone...but at least i'm not hurting anybody in the process...