...motto of the day...

i did'nt know how it happened or when it started...all i know is that for a couple of days now i have been at war with some of the people i care about.

i hate the fact that i'm starting to get clingy...that i'm demanding. i don't own them, and even if i did, that does not merit me the right to impose what i want from them...for they would get ticked off because they don't understand...and i can't make them. i want them to understand in their own time and in their own way. they don't need to be forced or to be pressurred because that would'nt be understanding at all...it's like love (cheesy, i know), you can't make people love you, if they don't.

don't get me wrong but i've had my fair share of broken hearts and painful memories. i think the only thing that sets me apart is the fact that the pain did not make me bitter, it never made me cynical. after all of the shit and crap, at the end of the day, i still believe in fairy tales, in happily-ever-afters, in love at first sight, and in the concept of "the one".

it's ironic how i can talk about love and yet be at war with the ones i care for. maybe as much as i'm mad at them, i'm more mad at myself. because those people remind me that i get affected. that their actions could somehow make or break me...and i don't want that. i want to be my independent, happy, single? self most of the time. i want to know and assure myself that i don't need them.

so from now on, i'll try not be clingy, but that would mean that i will need to add personal space. less expectations...less pain...that would be my motto for today.