...tattered...

well, the week is just starting for me at work...sucks that we were not able to take advantage of the company outing because of the schedule. a batchmate of mine was able to go, and she has pictures, i must admit, the place is nice and i would really love to go if i had the time. well they are trying to see if we can just go on a team outing, which, is fine by me because my teammates are really fun to be with.


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on other things. vhal had been texting me since yesterday. basically apologizing for acting like a first class jerk the last time.i gave him a hard time at first but when he texted me again last night, i became more forgiving and told him that it's now ok, that i was just venting out the other night.

he told me to take care on the way to work.

he told me to eat because he knows i have this tendency to skip meals especially if i'm sleep deprieved.

he told me he missed me and wanted to exchange SMS but that was his last credit. i told him,it's ok because i'm already off to work and i bid him goodnight.

this should have been one of those interactions where you could just brush it off your shoulder after a few hours, but i can't.

because he told me a lot of things, not to mention the fact that he still loves me.

i don't know how to take it.

or maybe i just don't want to hear it because i don't want to deal with it...not tonight...or some other night.

i don't want to go over the whole process of breaking his heart again.i'm sorry but i'm just not that cruel.

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i miss my niece.