i got "me" back

hey,i'm at work...where i should'nt be.yes i'm rendering over time, you got that right.lucky for me,calls are not queing during this time and i would like to take advantage of the unlimited internet access to publish my posts. :)

i'm looking forward to another bonding session with my cousins next week. we had a blast of a time hanging out last saturday,and an empty wallet the next day, when i unexpectedly got the day (or night?)off. we went to gerry's grill and pigged out on their really,really good and really, really crunchy sisig and other stuff. had a few rounds of san mig light until 2 am. as if we can't get enough of each other,we decided to hang out some more and have cake and coffee (caramel frap for me!) at starbucks in tomas morato.we spent the next 2 hours and a half just laughing as hard as we can,we exchanged doses of gossip about the people we know...and the people we don't and laughed some more on some silly joke or punchline someone threw in the conversation.

it was fun being with people who make me feel alive...and real and not just some gal who has a whole routine composed of: go home-sleep-wake up-eat-sleep-wake up-eat-sleep some more-wake up-take a bath-go to work.

life, i learned last saturday should not be devoid of energy...of laughter...and of clean unadulterated fun.

usually, i would have spent that night off sleeping, maybe weeping or shedding a tear or two, but not last saturday. last saturday, i decided that i'm free, i'm single, i am employed and i have the means and the right people to spend time with to genuinely have a good time.

last saturday,i rediscovered that i still have a life...after you...or after anyone else for that matter.

last saturday, i finally found my former self again. the carefree, spontaneous, opinionated and fun-loving person that i was before you came...maybe that is the person i need to be again...maybe that was the person who got lost along the course of being head-over-heals crazy in love with you.

i finally got that person back.