...help me...i'm saturating...

i don't know what people call that certain stage in your life where most things fail to make sense.

others brand it as saturation.

a certain point in your life where you do not see the the reason for doing things. you just want to stop abruptly. you start to feel that it is so much of a routine, you want to puke.

its like seeing the eyes of somebody you love and not feeling a thing. not feeling the emotions it used to convey beyond words. sometimes you start building this unconcious new habbit of not even looking at him. of not caring what you see and what you can not. it's sad.

i just want to sleep...sleep as long as i need to shake this feeling. i want to wake up and see the purpose in the things i do the way i used to. i want things to start to make sense again. i want to understand you again by just looking at you without needing to say a word.

maybe i'll just walk dead for a little while.

maybe walking dead would remind me what it feels to be alive...again.

maybe...

maybe not...